getting restless

well, i got through the 100 degree days, bought 2 fans, and spent most of the time in a friend's cool basement.  kitty was like a rag doll.  he was a bit hyper at my friend's house, though, and used me as a platform for jumping up onto a window sill.  so i am scratched and battered, and kitty had to spend a few hours in his gym bag carrier (with little mesh windows on the sides) thinking about the bad thing he had done.  he was much more mellow after that little time out, but i doubt he understands a thing about why he was sent there.   i clipped his nails again tonight and this time he did not fight it.  i guess he is resigning himself to some of the silly and useless things humans think are necessary.

i got my 2 days off from the man!!!  of course they would not give me monday or friday off, but i did get tuesdays and wednesdays off.  so when we have those lovely holidays on mondays, i get a five day weekend!  now that's what i'm talking about.

i plan to do a little volunteer work, and some paid work so i don't go bankrupt.  it will be so nice not to be in a cubicle every day of the week.  and i plan to exercise on those days.  i have been doing about 2 times a week, and i want to at least double that.

i saw an ad for helping street kids in brazil - in the favelas.  i am almost afraid to look into it, for fear i will jump in and do it.  i really want to go back to brazil, but don't especially want to hang out in areas where i could get killed.  there are very few places like that in brazil, but the slums of Rio, for example, would be one of those few.  drugs are the main currency there, and even big name politicians and TV station owners are involved.  so it is best not to mess with their world.  but i would be interested in having those kids come to a center where i could teach them and learn from them...

why am i not content to lead a "normal" life?  i never fit in with my families wishes for me, or with my classmates' ideas of an ideal future with hubby and kids and a minivan.  (now it would be an SUV, i suppose).   i just feel the world is so huge and there is so much to explore and learn, and other cultures seem to have a better handle on living one day at a time, taking it easy and enjoying each moment.  of course, life there is less "secure" but what is security, really?  people here who have worked 30 years for the same company get pink slips and a new teenager who will accept lower pay comes in to take their place... just one example of this illusion we call security.